"I Want Something Just Like This"

As I sit here at the end of a long, hard, stressful week (more stressful than usual), I am both exhausted and grateful. I guess I could say I'm grateful for all the reasons I'm exhausted. The boys and I love watching youtube music videos of The Piano Guys. They came to our sacrament meeting last Sunday. That's two times they've come to our ward now. Once in Connecticut and once here. James totally photobombed the Millares' photo they took with the guys. So funny! We walked outside after church and I'm wondering where James went and I see these little legs amidst a group posing for a picture. That's my James! And the piano guys?...awesome, down to Earth, nice guys. When I don't have a nursing baby and they are doing a concert close to me, we are definitely going to it. We also like to watch videos of One Voice Children's choir. I'm just fascinated by all those beautiful children singing like angels. One of the songs that has played all day in my head is "I Want Something Just Like This." Which we have of course listened to or watched the spin off videos of done by these two artist groups. I have no idea who actually wrote that song. Here's the link to the children's choir video of it if you want though. Something Just Like This
But as I sit marveling in my finally quiet house I am struck with great force that this is exactly everything I've ever wanted in life. People to love and love me back. I wish there were words to express just how much these little boys of mine, and husband, mean to me. I find myself looking through pictures of my little boys after I tuck them in bed wondering where all the time went. How did they get to be so big and helpful and independent? When did they get freckles all over their noses? I'm excited and nervous and terrified and hopeful to see what kind of men they will be one day. I wonder if I'm doing the right things to help them become the men they need to be. I oftentimes find it hard to sleep worrying about the choices I'm making on their behalf and if they are the right choices for them. But then, I try to give it to God and hope that I will be inspired as to what to do best. I find great peace in the words of Elder Holland, "To all mothers in every circumstance, including those who struggle, I say, 'be peaceful.' Believe in God and yourself. You are doing better than you think you are." I am so grateful for modern day prophets and apostles to reassure us that when we keep the commandments, things work out. Now, I really must do something about my disastrous kitchen so that I can wake up and remember that I wanted something just like this.

I don't always love the pictures my kids take when they grab my phone and randomly start snapping photos of me without me knowing, but I love this one. Insert each baby where Liam now sits and its how they've spent their first few months of life. In my arms with kisses all over their sweet little heads and faces. 

Love our park days!

Proof that the Piano Guys were at church. They are in the background. They'd already posed for pictures about a thousand times for people and I just wanted to get everyone in the car.

Love these handsome men of mine.

"I want something just like this"